Don't say it if you don't mean it.

My boyfriend & I,

2012-01-25T17:28:00.004+08:00

So what are we up to these days? A deeper connection between one another :')

Alright, not in chronological order, let's start.

I was remembered about the meet up yesterday that I had with him. A short but a wonderful one. He talks about signing on, he talks about his future. What's more wonderful is that, it has me in it. He discussed with me about signing on which initially in my heart, I do not agree but after a while, I thought, if he knows what he wants and he knows what he'll be facing, why not. I'm supporting him if he says he wants to sign on.

Another thing was that about finance. He wants to stabilize himself, financially so he could help his family which is really sweet. He never forgets about his family which is a plus point. Another thing which she shocked me was that, he talked about marriage; our marriage. I was almost speechless but at the same time I'm thankful because he doesn't want us to just stay as being in a relationship but something more.

I got to know him when he was still a boy but as years passed, he grew. He slowly grew to become a responsible person, a responsible man. 40 months being with him isn't a waste after all. The cutest thing is that, he talked about having/getting a bigger car so that we could drive our future family when we got married; kids :')

It was shocking yet something pleasing to hear. I thank God for meeting me with a boy who is growing to be a responsible man. Of course, I got to thank the boyfriend himself for thinking maturely. Who says a 20 year old male isn't mature? I'm glad mine is.

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Okay so next up. We had an outing. We went over to Vivo City. You could probably says it's our favorite place just because we go there quite often. Before meeting him I had my lunch at home; fried pasta. I brought some along. Since he was hungry I let him have it. We bought a big bottle of apple drink which cost us 99cents & tidbits at Giant. We slacked at the "swimming pool" area.

I thought of watching a movie but I'm lazy to withdraw money since I only have ATM card with me. So, cancel that. Many shops closed as early as 5pm. It was the eve of Chinese New Year. Anyway, finally, there's Sephora at Vivo City. I'm not sure how long it has been there but I just found out. Hohoho, shopping time soon I guess? Hehe.

After a while, we slacked outside the fast food area where the little ones will be playing at the "water playground". While slacking, he braided my hair. Uhuh, I got my personal hair-braider. Hee!

The crazy fun times we had!

This :') He accepted me for who I am, for how I am, for how I look.

This isn't the only time he calls me that. There are other times too :')

Hair braids by boyfriend! :D

He's just like a baby when he's tired. So cute.

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Alright, there was another time where we head to town. Another meet up a day after he booked out. Coincidently both of us were wearing green. Different shades of green though and also that day was like a gift exchange day. He bought me a pair of shoe and same goes me.

We had Burger King for lunch at Cineleisure before hunting for shoes.

Favourite photo for that day (:

And yup! He got me a pair of these! Wooohoooo!

And yup! I got him a pair of these! His choice (:

And before we head back to Yishun, we had ice cream at Cold stone; Chocolate devotion. Mmmmmmm, just perfect for chocolate lovers! We shared the ice cream (:

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This was yesterday. Remember the story I told first in this post; about finance and such? Yeah that part, before we had that talk we had ice cream. Mama told me about this place and boyfriend knows about this place. Well, since the both of us have yet to try, we decided to pop by to see if the shop was open.

Shop opened, we came by, we ordered and we enjoyed! Recommended for ice cream lovers! The waffle there is the best! It's just perfect. Crunchy on the outside, soft on the inside. It's also delicious if it's eaten just like that (: I think we were in luck. Why? Cause we were offered a drink and it's on the house! Wooooo! The place? Creme at Khatib!

Half waffle + Dark chocolate ice cream!

Half waffle + Apple ice cream!

The drink that was on the house.

Mango + lemonade!

The girlfriend & I,

2012-01-25T16:26:00.002+08:00

Click on the title above to read the full post! (:

It was supposed to be the three of us (Filzah, Dian & myself) but Filzah couldn't make it. We had a few outings plan but things happened & so we had to cancel them. So this was the day that Dian & myself had a short meet up. The next time, if God willing, it'll be the three of us (:

Where did we go? Somerset. We had our lunch at F.I.S.H located at Somerset 313. Oh yes, coincidently both of us were wearing something alike. It's just that mine was a maxi dress in black & she's wearing her black skirt with a chiffon top! Pretty coincidence, heh ^^

We walked around & there were flea markets opened @ Scape! I couldn't find anything that I like. She bought a pair of jeans (shorts); very rock-gorgeous-chic look kind of jeans. We actually walked around the flea markets quite a few times before leaving the place.

Another similarity that we found at the end of the meet up; our aim is the same though we're going through different obstacles. I just hope we'll stay strong & pull through. Love ya babe (:

Photos are taken by Dian!

My family & I,

2012-01-25T16:10:00.002+08:00

What have my family & I been up to? Scroll (Not in chronological order though)

Click on the title above to read the full post! (:

My sister's birthday falls on 17th January. On that very day, Mama had to leave for Kota Kinabalu for a day. So, I brought her out to have dinner as a mini celebration. We met up after I ended school. Where did we have our meal? Pizza Hut @ Northpoint. I'm glad she enjoyed the time. Not forgetting, the present that Mama & I got for her. An expensive necklace that she's been wanting.

She's 16 now. A big girl. She's growing & I'm glad at her age, she's more sensible than me when I was at her age. She's maturing :') I hope my sister moves to the right path of life. In just 4 years time she'll be at my current age. Of course, as the eldest, I want to see her be successful in life. Love you, though you're a pain in the a** at times (:

Warm chocolate brownie to replace birthday cake!

This is awesome people!

I can't remember what is this called. But it's like apple soda with apple bits in it.

Refreshing drink!

Fish & chips!

Calamari rings!

Personal pan pizza; Ocean catch! Ahhhh, delicious!

Beef lasagne!

The sister (:

The elder sister, haha!

I can't remember the name for this too.

It's like strawberry soda with aloe vera bits!

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Alright, what's next? Sister's 16th advance birthday treat from Mama! We head down to Chai Chee Seafood Restaurant at Changi! Awesome! We had a a heavy lunch & I really mean heavy. All in all, awesome lunch & of course I'm glad sister enjoyed her lunch. She's very particular about food for your info.

Oh yes, not forgetting that, that is the day where I had a huge pimple in between my brows which hurts terribly. People were staring at it as if it's some disgusting worm or whatsoever -.-

After the heavy lunch we went round Singapore. I wish I already had my car license so I could rent one & drive my family round but oh well, I know I can make that happen, soon if God willing (:

So... later in that day, we had ice cream @ Ben&Jerry's, Raffles place! And it's the birthday girl's treat. Awesome!

Chap Chye(?)!

I had my first bite on peas & it's actually not that bad.

Tom yum!

Oatmeal prawns! Ahhhhhh perfect!

Ikan tiga perasa (Fish slices with 3 flavors)

Butter squid.

Very disappointing. I feel like i;m trying to tear apart rubber with my teeth.

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Okay, my family & I had our first dinner @ The Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf (TCBLT) at NUH's outlet. One my cousins got admitted at night so before going home we thought of having dinner & since only TCBLT was opened, we had ours there. The serving was slow but the amount of serving.... a lot I must say. The taste? Not that bad. I might have another meal there again (:

Black pepper!

(Healthier choice according to the menu!)

Spicy tuna!

Beef bolognise(?)!

So yup, the 3 main events that my family & I had. May more of these happen! :D

The number is 40,

2012-01-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

Hey all, I've been busy lately but since I'm giving myself till 11pm to head to bed tonight, I shall do a little shoutout.

In less than 2 hours time it'll be 21st January 2012.

40 awesome months with you. 40 baby! There's more to come, insyallah.

Happy 40th month to me, you & us baby! *hearts*

I love you, my best soldier.

The stress period comes,

2012-01-09T22:22:00.001+08:00

Hi. How are you people doing? Me? Doing just okay. I'm still not used to having so many things that needs to be done in a short period of time. I never like to be forced to do things but this time, i can't say much. School = i can't be pampered and procrastinate too much cause in the end, by hook or by crook i have to get it done. I'm not a pampered b**ch okay. I was brought up being pampered by my family even till this day.

How's 2012 so far? It has been good for me excluding school (which does not include friends cause they are the ones who add smiles and laughter). Talking about friends, a friend of mine, Imm San gave me a Christmas card that she made herself. How sweet right! (: *picture below*

PD is killing me. Really. Urghhhhhhhhh. I don't even know how i survived till today. Well i guess this is something to expect cause i'm ending my Year 2 every soon & my Year 3 begins this coming April! The thought of internship scares me, a lot. I'm just afraid if i won't be able to pass any interviews! Terrible thought. Okay enough. Ranting about it won't help me to complete any assignments.

So..... yesterday i ate a lot after 8pm. Yes, *points to picture below* Yes it's blur but i guess you could see it. A lot and i was feeling bloated. Actually i'm still feeling it. But... it's alright cause the food was awesomely delicious especially the sambal goreng. Yummmmmmz!

I'm being random cause i'm updating whatever that i could remember. So next is that Ared; officially, P.O.P. Finally after going through PTP than BMT. Awesome! He has been strong. So next step, posting. I hope he can pull through this! (: I know he can!

I'm currently using blogger's updated interface. Truthfully, i hate it. Can anyone tell me how do i change back to its old settings? Please and thank you.

Alright, that's all for now. Thank you and be prepared for more random posts in time to come. Stress period = random posts. Good night all.

Say hello to 2012,

2012-01-01T23:07:00.000+08:00

I had an awesome end to 2011 and a great beginning to 2012. People were busy partying but boyfriend and I were at East Coast beach enjoying the sea and the breeze and catching the flares at midnight to welcome the new year. The sound of fireworks coming from the Marina Bay Sands side can be heard though. So.... it feels like we had both at one time. Oh yeah!

We had satay & chinese rojak. As for the rest of the time? We sat, we talked, we chill, we laughed, we smiled, we joke, we listen and enjoy each other's company. Thankful for the times spent and i'm thankful we're still as one on this very new year. This September will be our 4th year together :')

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I'm thankful that my family, friends that i'm currently in contact with, boyfriend and myself made it to 2012.

What's in store for me this year? Well, it's just the start of 2012 and my family is already teasing me about the big "2" that will be catching up with me. I'm up for it. New phase of life, new challenges. I'll be ending my Year 2 in my Polytechnic days very soon. By than i'll get to know how well or how badly i did and i hope for an improvement in my overall GPA. After that, very soon i'll be saying hello to my final year, Year 3. Once come Year 3, i'll be saying hello to internship (that is if i got through the interview, God's will)

This is also the year where my sister will be stepping into the life as a secondary 4 student. She'll be sitting for her N's. Her goal to enter Secondary 5 and than pursuing her studies in a polytechnic in either accounting or engineering are also my goals for her. I know she can perform better than me (: Oh my, time pass fast huh. She'll be 16 in 16 days time :')

Mama is aiming for her position as a principle in a childcare centre at My First Skool this year too. I'm so happy for her :') She worked so hard to have this chance. May God bless her and give her strength to pull through this. This is her dream.

Another thing, this is also the year where my friends of the same year will be seeing the big "2"! Hohoho, we've grown friends. From the time we've known each other till this stage. I hope all of my friends are doing well. All the best for your coming "2" :D

Not forgetting the boyfriend. He's having his P.O.P this coming 7th of January. From the time we were 16, very childish and till this date, the year we're turning 20. I'm so thankful that i met you. I'm so thankful that you added me on Friendster, omg hahahaha :') Those memories.

I've set 10 short term goals for this year. May i manage to complete all 10.

Alright, 2012 is here. May 2012 be a smooth sailing year for all of you! Cheers.

What are your plans?

2011-12-28T21:23:00.000+08:00

After 12 days of being 'contactless', after 14 days of not seeing each other. Met each other on the 23rd & 26th Dec 2011. Had a great time. Loads of words to express how much fun times i had with him. I won't go on cause it's not gonna end. But i just gotta say, we've been staying strong to go through all these.

Awesome 39 months (plus plus) we have. About a week more till his P.O.P. Oh yeah! I'm kind of excited to know where he'll be posted to. Am i weird? Hahaha. I know he'll stay strong to complete these 2 years of being 'green'. If you get what i mean. I just want these 2 years to pass fast so he gets to do and achieve his dreams in the sports line/industry (: That's where his interest and passion lies.

School's re-opening soon. So, what have i been doing lately (school related stuff), almost to nothing :/ I did a little research..... and...... ya...... I know, this isn't suppose to happen but procrastination kicked in. Bad habit. BUT at least the research that i did was fruitful. I've got loads of interesting things to add in :D

2011 is ending soon. What are your plans for 2012? 2012 sounds like a good number (: Forget about the rumours saying the world is gonna end. Well, whatever happens, it'll end sooner or later. Let God decide. We just know that the world is gonna end but unsure when. Okay, enough about that. So back to the topic, what are your plans? Any resolutions? Anything to add in your achievement and/or wishlist? I do. Loads actually but taking it step by step.

2011 has been a very productive year for me. I've accomplished many things and some of it are, i'm in the midst of completing it. I'm proud of myself (:

2011 countdown? No party, no alcohol, no smoke. Nothing wild. Just me and boyfriend by the beach. Please make this happen, again (: That'll be just perfect.

26th Dec 2011. (some of the pictures taken)

Cheese fries from 200+ Yishun! Yummmmmz!

Chocolate rice donut from 200+ Yishun Bakery!

Sugar donuts from 200+ Yishun bakery!

I'm loving my hair here! \m/

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23rd Dec 2011. (some of the pictures taken)

Christmas lights along Somerset.

Wet from the super heavy rain on that day.

The long thing, peach!

If i'm not wrong this is, 'Chicken stuffed mushroom' at F.I.S.H.

Awesome place to dine in! :D

Soup of the day at F.I.S.H. Mushroom!

Back,

2011-12-21T14:52:00.000+08:00

Hi! I've just came back from Kuala Lumpur (KL) last night. Flight was delayed for about 30 minutes. I had an awesome time with my family & relatives/cousins during our 4D3N trip to KL. Our accommodation was at Radius International Hotel which is located at Bukit Bintang. It was alright. It was comfortable actually. I just don't like the part where we had to walk up and down the (quite) steep slope to go and be out of the hotel.

Places that we go (not in order): Masjid India, Genting, KLCC, Pavilion, Berjaya Times Square, Mid Valley and many more shopping centres which i can't recall their names. I got myself 2 tops from Mango (major sale going on!), beauty products from Silkygirl (they were having a major sale!), 2 tops from Berjaya Times Square, 1 top from Cache Cache (major sale too!). I wanted to get more tops but sizes were not available :( I did not manage to get stuff for my friends. I was a little disappointed but oh well, got to rush for time. It takes quite a while to get to places especially because it's free and easy.

We travel on our own by their LRT, monorail, KTM and taxis. I got to admit, when we're travelling, i miss Singapore's transportation. It's just so easy to understand and it's hassle-free. In KL, at times, we had to walk a big round just so we could get to the next station to change. Not exaggerating but it's true. But all in all, it was a good experience. Oh yes, not forgetting, they uses chips instead of cards for monorail if i'm not wrong.

I'll update more about the trip. I've yet to transfer the photos taken at KL. Will do a proper update with pictures so it won't be as boring with just chunks of words.

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It's the 21st today. The last 21st of the month for the year 2011. I'm glad we've made it this far. We just won't stop the days of being together, insyallah. I finally get to hear from him after being "contact-less" for 12 days. He was away for field camp. He's back from Tekong now and probably will be booking out tomorrow. If things goes well, we'll be meeting up this Friday.

I have something on this Friday :( I've yet to tell him, i hope he's alright meeting up after my stuff has ended. Anyways, i'm glad he's safe and doing alright. I'm glad i get to receive a text message from him wishing us on our 39th month.

I just want to say, Happy 39 months to me, you and us! Like what he has said, i'm glad we're strong to face this. mFm always.

Short getaway,

2011-12-16T15:49:00.001+08:00

I have yet to pack my stuff for my 4D3N trip to KL. I am flying off tomorrow :/ I shall rush through to pack my stuff.

I will be having driving practical later at night. My flight will be at 7 am tomorrow. Gotta wake up really early to catch the flight.

I can't wait. A short getaway with my family, aunties, uncle and cousins (:

Communication-less,

2011-12-14T21:59:00.002+08:00

Today marks exactly a week without having any kind of communication between us. He's not sure when will the rest & himself be getting back their hand phones. I just hope it'll be soon. I miss seeing his name appearing on my Samsung jet screen. I miss hearing his voice. I miss his sweet-gentleman-cheeky-sensitive-cute character. I miss him stealing my body lotion. I miss his warm hugs. I miss........ everything especially his presence. Sighs. I guess it's a week more before he'll be back.

I hope he's well. I hope he's alright. I hope he's coping. I pray for his well-being.

He wasn't around when i turned 19 yesterday but he already have plans to make it up to me when he's back. He even sent me a super advanced birthday wish before he goes off for field camp. He won't be around when i'm flying off to KL this coming 17th but he already wish me and my family an enjoyable and a safe trip to and fro. Probably he won't be around too when our relationship is a month older; 39 months being together. But he already have plans to make it up to me. It's not his fault cause it's a guy's responsibility but i thank God for having him. Even things like these are very important to him.

Just.A.Week.More.To.Go.

Staying strong for you, me, us. I know we're going to pull through this :')

Awesome 19th,

2011-12-14T01:14:00.002+08:00

To sum up 13/12/11. I had an awesome 19th birthday! The last stage of being a 1_. Thank you for the money & time spent & also the wishes received from awesome bunch of classmates, friends, family, babes, dudes, sisters, bros & babygirls through FB, text messages & calls. Thank you all for making my 19th an Atin-mific one! ♥

Thank you to my boyfriend for a super advance birthday wish :') He's not around cause he's away to field camp.

Thank you to my family for an advance birthday lunch treat at Olivye, Changi Village & gifts from both Mama & younger sister :)

Thank you to my babygirls, Dian & FatinFilzah for the early wishes & also i'll be seeing you girls later.

Thank you to my sweethearts, Nilah & Nabilah for the wishes & although we don't see each other as often, you're still there for me :)

Thank you to my classmates for the cake! I got to make a wish!

Thank you to Nizam for the donuts!

Thank you to Imm San & Yi Zhen for the time spent at CoffeBean. A 4-hour long chat. Secrets secrets, hehe ^^

Thank you to everyone of you who took the time to wish me a happy birthday wishes through Facebook, text messages & calls.

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

I'm blessed with awesome bunch of people :D

And not forgetting, thank you Allah for meeting me to the day i turn 19th :')

Prioritize,

2011-12-10T18:37:00.001+08:00

Before i start my post, just wanted to say i've finally put up a short post on my design blog.

http://atiin.wordpress.com/

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How are you people doing? I'm doing good. I haven't did any proper update in a while, so here it goes. I feel a little more lonely for almost 3 days now. Why? My boyfriend is away for his field camp. He'll only be back probably this coming 21st (which also means he got to miss my 19th birthday, my trip to KL updates & also our 3 years 3 months of being together) That's just an estimation that i got from him.

I know, some might say, boyfriend? You feel lonely just because he's away? Your boyfriend is your everything!? Yes, to a certain extent he's my everything. This is the issue i've been facing for quite a while now.

Some say i prioritize my boyfriend too much that i forget my friends. The funny thing is that, the "some" that i am referring to, prioritize their boyfriends more than friends. How's that? No one really know what i'm facing. The person who has been there for me all these while ever since 2008, is my boyfriend. He's there for me. Friends? HA. They come and go. That was in the past (secondary school days. Sadly, i don't have awesome memories back then) I'm actually happy that i'm out of secondary school. But i don't deny i still treasure the friendship that i had with my fazzy sister (:

Other than that, nah, i'm being bullied, being teased and so on and so forth. Even the friend whom i thought could last till forever has forgotten about me. She only looks for me when her friends are not around. Just like the other time where she's bored and out of the blue she asked me out. Bitch, i'm not your toy. (Sorry for the harsh language)

I went through bad days back then. When it's 2008, i was in secondary 4, i met Ared who is my current boyfriend. He's been there for me, accepting me for who i am, accepting my family's condition, giving me support, puts a smile on my face, makes me laugh that i do get stomach cramps from it, wipe my tears away, makes me happy that at times i just had to let out happy tears, do stupid silly lame things with me, listen to my complains and whines and the list goes on.

I get tired looking for friends who i thought will be there for me during my tough times. Cause what happens? They were no where to be found. *poof* gone.

I've been with my boyfriend since i was in Secondary 4. I'm so thankful that the relationship lasted till now and if God willing till forever. During my tough times, he's there and i don't know how am i going to cope without having him around. He appeared back then, so i guess that could be a reason to why i prioritize him more than some of my friends. Seriously, if you're not in my situation and at the very least if you can't even understand my situation, keep your comments to yourself.

Those were the bad times. I guess it's true, that bad things happened for a reason. Cause then i met Ared and i learn to appreciate things in life so much better. I'm in a polytechnic now and i can't thank enough that i met a bunch of awesome people here. It's my second year now, so far so good. I'm having good-stable-awesome friendships with the people in Republic Polytechnic. I hope this could last even after graduation. Maybe because we're more mature in our thinking that we treat one another more like adults or should i say, respect (there are times where we're childish and lame which is normal). Hehe!

Prioritize change as time pass. No doubt i do prioritize my boyfriend more than friends now but that does not mean i won't be there for you as a friend. No, not like that. My prioritize change. It depends on how the situation is like. I love both my boyfriend and my friends. Before, saying that i have forgotten my friends, reflect back on yourself, isn't your boyfriend is the one who you prioritize the most now?

Help anyone?

2011-12-07T19:00:00.001+08:00

I wanted to update but i guess that won't happen for now. There's no button for uploading images. (from my page). Is it happening to all of you too? Help? Please.

Summarize,

2011-12-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

(i'm no more using flickr)

School have been tough and it's challenging. Portfolio development (PD) + FYP (coming soon) + IIP (coming as well). I'm looking forward to the new experiences but at the same time, i feel like taking a step back and leave. I don't deny i have thoughts of leaving school and start working full-time. But thinking back, it won't be worth it. I'm letting down MENDAKI who has helped me with the school fees, i'm letting down my late Papa's wish, i'm letting down my Mama's expectations, i'm letting down the motivation for my younger sister, i'm letting down the confidence my boyfriend has for me & most importantly, i'm letting down myself. It's like i'm looking down on me, myself.

So yup, i'm still holding on because i want a better future. So yup, some of UT1 results are out. I'm really happy for my Sci Art module :D A little disappointed for my Site-specific art. Sequential and Motion Design grade have yet to be out. Not long after this, UT2 begins. Mine starts on the 8th of December. I can't wait for the holidays! I'm turning 19 soon, going over to KL with family for a short trip, outing with friends! Need a break.

I feel like i have so much to talk about but i cant get it out to be printed and typed out in words. Too many things running through my mind. Sorting out slowly. I'm doing fine.

I want to shop! I got a put aside some cash for my shopping needs. I did not forget about savings! (: I'm able to handle money better now. Yay me!

I'm going for my Final Theory Test Trial tomorrow. The actual one will be on 24th December. Time flies! I thought i would have enough time to at least complete my first stage of driving. I got to squeeze in more time for my driving practicals! I'm doing alright for my driving lessons. I fixed myself an instructor and so far he has been helping me a lot and giving me tips and advices along the way.

I did got myself in a minor accident in the circuit but things went smoothly after that. I hope i can get my licence within 6 months! I'm excited for this! Wooooooooo!

Design blog,

2011-11-28T16:18:00.001+08:00

I created a blog for my design thoughts and process. It's new so yeah, updates will come along. It's about my curiosity and interest in Information Architecture and Service Design.

http://atiin.wordpress.com/

I miss.. ,

2011-11-26T15:55:00.000+08:00

I miss my handsome-cute-annoying boyfriend. He's not able to book out this week. Next week.

Patiently waiting for that day.

" I just can't stop crying dear.. I just miss you n my fam so much seh... :'( " - Ared.

" God damn! I miss you so much darling.. Please don't do anything dumb.. I love you baby.. Hope we can stay strong and go thru this together.. *hugs* " -Ared.

Missing you my dearest. See you soon. Much love. xoxo.

Facial treatment,

2011-11-21T18:07:00.010+08:00

Hi people. So lately i've been wondering about what to do and/or what not to do after having a facial treatment. I've been going for facial treatments for almost a year i would say. Facial treatment = deep cleansing. Which also means that new pimples might popped out within 24 hours because of the deep cleansing; it brings out all the impurities underneath giving your skin the chance to grow new cells. I went on to research and of course i receive a few tips from my beauty therapist. So here it goes.

3 steps; What not to do after a facial treatments:-

1) No washing of your face.

Uhuh, no. I meant as in with all your facial products that you usually use. Because your face have been cleaned and steamed plus it has gone through scrubbing/peeling and the different treatments that caters to you skin type. To put it short, your skin had gone through deep cleansing. Let the products work for a day.

2) Stay out of the sun.

After a facial treatment, you've got new skin cells developing/growing and they are vulnerable. It can burned easily under sun exposure.

3) Don't popped any pimples!

The facialist might have left some that's just because the pimples have yet to reach to the skin surface which makes it difficult for extraction to be done. No worries, the deep cleansing treatment will help the pimples to surface and it'll be able to be extracted on your next facial treatment.

2 steps; What to do after facial treatments:-

1) Don't go overboard with any treatments.

Skin is sensitive. It might cause great irritation to the skin. So what to do? Use a wet cloth/facial sponge. Soak it in lukewarm water and apply/dab it onto your face.

2) Water.

Never fail to not say this. Water, drink lots of it. Important!

Still counting,

2011-11-20T22:59:00.002+08:00

It's the 21st today. It's our day every 21st. I've posted a post about us on my another blog (meant for us).

You're in camp now. We'll be seeing each other probably this coming Saturday. But no matter what, here's to us..

Happy 3 years 2 months to you, me & us baby.

I love you handsome *hearts*

The best i'm doing,

2011-11-20T13:18:00.000+08:00

Change is constant. No doubt about that. I don't know if it's coincidental or are Sagittarius born to be this way; never really follow their set of goals. Their set of goals change as time pass. Nothing wrong with that right? The way i feel changes; i'm not exactly sure if it has got to do with mood swings. People have that at times which sucks at times. Being straightforward here.

I somehow got used to being compared with my younger sister by my grandparents. So again here, i'm unsure if its the act of old aged people or is it really the fact that my younger sister is so much better than me? When both of us are home, i will always here this (i translate it to English alright), "Ya.. can you help?" Help in a lot of things. My name will only be heard if she's not around which is like once in a blue moon. Even so, they will find fault saying i'm doing it incorrectly when i know i did exactly like how my younger sister do for them. You know, favoritism? Yeah, that's what i can say.

I can sense that they don't like it when i'm going out other than going to school and driving practicals. I got life. I'm almost 19 and soon i won't be called a teenager, people will say i'm a young adult. Life's short, i got family, friends and boyfriend to 'breakeven' my time. Everyone has 24 hours daily. It's not easy making time for everyone and this makes it tougher with having goals and dreams that i want to achieve. I admit, i rarely help out with household chores and cooking nowadays but i never fail to make an effort to keep the conversation between family going.

I don't know what my grandparents wants exactly from me but for sure, they think that my younger sister can replace my position as the eldest daughter in the family and also the 3rd but the eldest granddaughter to their eyes. Saddening but i can't do or say much. Life's got to move on.

It's not easy communicating with people of older generation and trying to make them understand the current life of young people. I don't know if it's my fault or are they just behind time. But i know, i feel trapped whenever i'm home and i want to break free from whatever that i'm facing. Life's hard.

Whatever it is, i know i did my part and i know i'm doing and still doing my best.

Straight out,

2011-11-15T22:48:00.001+08:00

Hi. Here's my first post using the blogger app. So here I go.

Now I feel like I want to accomplish so many things. I don't know if I could manage but I do want to accomplish them at this point of time. At the very least, is to start them now.

I have started a few now but I still feel incomplete without having the others to get the ball rolling.

1) Diploma in anything related to design? I'm currently studying in RP. Not my choice of polytechnic but the course that I'm taking matters most.

2) Motorbike licence? Can't do it cause mama so not allow. It's okay. Why go on when you do not have your mama's blessings right.. Than I decided on car licence and now I'm a student at woodlands, SSDC as a L-plate driver.

3) A part time job. Yes. Now I strongly feel of having one. I know I have been fickle minded these days especially about working part time now but I know I'm ready. I've yet to find one. Looking. Searching. Hopefully I'll find one.

Things that I want to own when I officially start on a proper job (and also with savings to be done) are definitely my own house & a car of my own. $$$$$ but I'll work hard for it.

I can go on and on and on rambling about what I want to accomplish but the ones stated above are the more important ones I would say.

So sidetrack, should I get myself a pair of sandals from Birkenstock? It's only selling for $65! (from an online shop) should I?

My skin-story,

2011-11-14T20:15:00.000+08:00

I have never thought about the benefits of taking care of your skin. I never take notice about the importance of having a skin regime and also pampering your skin at least once a month. So now, i'm paying a high price for it.

Yes, i'm jealous of those who has perfect clear looking skin. I do want that. Well, i had that but now, it's a different story. Photos do not depict my true skin. Lights and such hides the acne/blemishes, imperfections to a certain extent. I became very insecure that i feel ashamed to face the public. I received stares and hurtful remarks from others about my skin. That brings my self-esteem to an even lower level. Well, maybe to a certain extent my self-esteem went to almost zero.

I tried many different types of products and brands just so i could maintain and kill the bacteria that is/are causing the major breakouts that i had. It was to no avail. It breaks out even more and my hands became itchy from touching it to popping them. I know, it's something that everyone should avoid but like i've said, my hands were itchy. The first time i popped the pimple, it did not leave a scar. I continued with each breakout till i found myself a huge scar left on my face. Thanks to my itchy hands, bacteria spreads and more breakouts appeared.

I bought makeups. Not to enhance my natural self beauty but to cover up the imperfections that are visible to others and also to myself. Yes, i put on heavy makeup just so i could feel better about myself. Well... that just makes it worse.

That got me thinking. Why the hell do i even want to cover up? Shouldn't i be thinking, hey, even with this imperfections, i'm perfectly me? Shouldn't people appreciate me the way i am? Even if people can't do that, i should appreciate myself. No one's perfect right.

I went on to research about the cures or help that could help with my skin condition. There were a lot of them! I got to one by one; trying it out and finding out what's best for me. On top of that, Mama helped me to try products that suits my skin condition best and also send me for facial treatments. I'm glad she cares for me and for how i feel. I'm thankful i'm born to be her daughter. No matter what, she still never fail to say, "You're beautiful, girl. I'm not saying it just because you're my daughter but it's a fact." :')

The first year didn't really give much effect but i can't expect much because my acne scars are really deep and it'll need a longer time to fade and/or clear. My oil secretion needs to be controlled too.

Now, though people still say it's disgusting having "things" on my face, i say my skin improves a lot from all the TLC that i gave.

Water helps a lot! Fruits too! Vegetables included but i only started to like them recently, especially tomatoes! Tomatoes is really good for the skin! It's good if it's eaten or if it's being used as a mask or facial wash :) Other than tomatoes, another regime that i swear by will be oatmeal! Yes, oatmeal. I use to cleanse my face with oatmeal about twice a week in the morning with lukewarm water. It can be a little messy but worth it. I do use an everyday hydrating mask from Neutrogena, tea tree range products from The Body Shop, Jorubi aloe vera gel as my everyday moisturizer.

There are still visible scars on my face but it's so much better now it does not cover my whole face. The major part of my face where the scars are still red and hideous will be my cheeks area. My forehead tends to have this pimple-like popping out but no, they're heat rashes -.-

I love makeups if you people do not know. I just LOVE makeups. I do have a bunch of makeup products and some of it are still unused. I know, i'm taking extra care so that my skin won't be going back to its previous look :)

Well girls, whoever is having or facing skin problems, i feel you. It's not easy to face the public with "things" on your face. However, i respect those who still is confident about themselves even with "things" on their faces. Salute!

There are many help out there. But don't ever forget to drink lots of water, having fruits & vegetables. And be positive, it'll help, trust me. With patience, sweet things will come to you (:

Till the end?

2011-11-13T14:03:00.000+08:00

Years after years.

The last?

It's been a while huh,

2011-11-06T22:06:00.000+08:00

Haven't been updating for quite a while. People will always say they are busy and stuff like that. And yes i'm gonna say that. I was really busy with life. I'm busy with school now that we have to do tougher RJ's, Portfolio Development (PD), CV and not forgetting proposal.

My grades? Sad. I don't know, it doesn't seem like i'm coping well with studies now. It's getting tougher i must say and only now i feel like i'm a design student. I'm now confident to tell others that i study design when i'm asked what am i doing now.

BUT........ i don't know. I hope i can cope. Really. My grades are like.... never mind. I've just had my first UT for Year 2 Semester 2, 2 days back; Sequential and Motion Design. I did alright. 2 more modules till i end my UT1. Now, i got to concentrate on CV, proposal and also PD. I need more help in PD. I've got ideas but not really sure if i'm on the right path.

It's tough and tiring but i'm glad i have support from my family, friends and boyfriend. I'm already half way through Diploma studies. I can't give up & get my PHD (if you get what i mean) now! So yeah, that's my current school life.

-- -- -- --

Personal life? Excluding the irritants, it's going on quite smoothly i must say. I'm still trying to juggle my time between family, friends and now that my boyfriend is serving NS, i got to try to make time on the day he's available. Not only that, i got to make time for my driving lessons. Talking about driving, i passed my BTT and it was my first attempt. So proud of myself! I've gotten my Provisional Driving Licence (PDL) and i've booked my first 2 practical. My first practical will be this coming Saturday! I'm thrilled! (nervous at the same time!)

I gotta juggle my time. Wisely.

-- -- -- --

I can't wait for 9th January 2012! Why? I can upgrade my phone! I thought of Samsung Galaxy S II. I thought of getting it in white! (i wish it'll be available in red) Of course i'm gonna upgrade my plan as well! Any comments for this phone below? Thanks thanks.

-- -- -- --

Tough times. I'm here.

I'm not running leaving you to handle on your own.

Almost the same,

2011-10-23T13:19:00.000+08:00

Let's start of by saying that i had an awesome day with Dear Ared yesterday. Just like the past few weeks, we met on Saturday after he booked out. Initially we wanted to just slack at Yishun but we decided to go out of Yishun and walked around instead.

Destination? Dhoby Ghaut. (Ever asked yourself where this word come from? I do, still wondering.) Anyways, since we're at The Cathay, we filled our tummies with food from Popeyes. Tried the shrimp sandwich. Truthfully, it's not worth the price at all. It's $8+ for a really small size sandwich with a pathetic number of shrimps put in between the bread with a piece of lettuce and a slice of tomato. Not worth the price at all. No doubt popeyes makes the best mash potato!

Oh yes, when we met in the MRT (he's from khatib & i'm from Yishun so yeah, we met in the train) and woah, we were almost wearing the same outfit. Sweet coincidence! Okay, moving on.

So cute! We rarely talk when we're eating. He's that way so i got used to it. Prevention from getting choked? Probably, hehehe. Not forgetting, photos. Everyhwere we go, photos will be taken for memories sake. Time flies, moments pass, memories stays :)

I look so shag and i don't know why. See the necklace i'm wearing? I'm loving it. It's added to my collection of accessories! Gotta hunt for more necklaces! Any places to share? :)

This was the shrimp sandwich i was talking about. Should have taken the sandwich as a whole. But luckily, the shrimp tasted good. They could have lowered the price but i doubt they can do just that in time to come.

So next, we walked and walked and walked and our feet brought us to Someset 313. Shopping? Nope. I gotta save for now. Maybe in 2 months time? Shall ask Ared along, he's like my very own 'fashion designer' :) So yup, as you can see; COLD ROCK. We're no more a virgin to Cold Rock. We made our first visit yesterday.

I can't remember the size that we asked for. It's something like small take home pack. Well yeah, something like that. The flavors? Bubblegum + cheesecake. Toppings? Nerds (sweets) + M&Ms (we got extra because the staff accidentally put M&Ms when we asked for Nerds but that's alright, cause we got both!) Total = $13.50! I don't know if it's expensive or not but it's worth the try! Maybe there will be 2nd, 3rd or more visits.

Cold Stone & Cold Rock, are they the same? Tried both already and both are recommended by me. Have not tried any? Got find time & have an ice cream treat! :)

Of course, again photos for memories! All the photos posted in this post are from my Samsung Jet. I still have a few more from my iPod. I'll find sometime to transfer the photos to my laptop and post. We spent the time there for quite a while i must say. We finished the tub of ice cream and sat there with myself watching Ared playing games on my iPod. When he's playing games, he gives a lot of expressions. He's so cute ^^ And another thing, he never fails to pull me closer to him, aww...

The close up of the ice cream we had! Awesome right? Go and have your share! :) Who don't love ice cream right!?!?!?! Ice cream FTW!

I had a good time. We had a good time together. As always, he will send me home. He never lets me go home on my own if we're out together :') 12:35am, i reached home. He's booking in tonight. Thanks to Deepavali, he gets to be out and i got to see him earlier. Till the next meet, much misses.

37th,

2011-10-21T17:07:00.000+08:00

Things were not going right for me. Frustrations, irritations, anger and whatever negative emotions you could think of were my best friends for that point of time. I was terribly sick with fever, bad dry coughing which hurts my chest, tummy and causes shortness of breath. I had to just ................ her.

But whatever it is, i still manage to complete 50% of my first item for my Portfolio Development (PD). I still got about 6 and a half more to say that i have officially completed my PD.

And not forgetting, every 21st of every month.

Happy 37 months to you, me & us Dear Ared *hearts*

Bugis to Vivo City,

2011-10-16T17:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i had 2 outings. One with my family and the other one with Ared.

Family.

We had our lunch at Fish & Chicks which is just beside Sembawang Shopping Center (SSC). From our home we walked to the bus stop and SSC bus came. Just in time. So we decided to hop on the bus and alighted at SSC. Walked out a little sat in Fish and Chicks.

My mama had breaded fish & chips. My sister had beef pepperoni. I had Prawn Aglio and cream mushroom. How's the food? It's okay. Just okay to be honest BUT the breaded fish & chips = (Y) Must try. It's huge and it's less than $10! The prawn aglio? Well, it was okay. A little bland i must say but the prawns... i love the prawns. When you bite it, it burst. I don't know how to describe but yeah. The cream mushroom has a more mushroom taste rather than the creamy taste. It has this strong mushroom smell and the soup is somehow thin but it's worth the try. I don't mind having the soup again.

So, pastamania prawn aglio is still my favorite. But yeah, i might be having my meal again at Fish & Chicks to try their other dishes.

-- -- -- --

So next, an outing with Ared. Destination? Vivo city! Since i was out with my family first, i told him to meet me straight at Vivo City. Might as well because he booked out in the afternoon and i wouldn't want to waste my fare by going to and fro. Since we're like at "one end to another end" we met at Dhoby Ghaut first and made our way to Vivo City together.

Main reason? To have a nice place to slack & also to have Burger King! Oh yes, it has been quite a long while since we last had Swiss Mushroom tendergrill chicken! *slurps* YUMMMMMY!

After satisfying ourselves with our craving that had been going for quite a long while, we walked around, bought starbucks and than slack at Vivo SkyPark. Ahhhhhh, a nice place IF there weren't many people but it's the weekends, so yeah.

We slacked till around 9:30pm. Talked about things, sharing what we feel and the most important thing, enjoying each other's company.Not forgetting, before that, we head to ToysRus to play with the toys! ^^

Every meet up is precious and it's even more precious especially after he got enlisted. There's this part where he told me that there will be a time where he'll be away for 15 days with NO contact, boooohooooooo.

However we have planned on one of the coming weeks to spend time together at East Coast Park (ECP) I've promised him i'll go cycling with him one day and i hope on that day, i'll be able to keep my promise. If that day happens, it'll be our FIRST cycling session together :') And also, we have included to build sand castles and play with bubbles. Relieving those childhood memories and i'm glad Ared doesn't mind, in fact he agreed to it on the spot :')

November, come fast. I just can't wait for that day to happen.

"1,2,3, ahhhhhhhhhhh!" ,

2011-10-14T19:26:00.000+08:00

Hi all. I shall blog about the outing i had with the girls; Imm San and Yi Zhen. We got along well i must say and we're classmates still for 3 semesters straight. Alright, the outing took place last Wednesday which was on 12th October. So yup, the outing was impromptu. It was something that we randomly talked about on the first day of school (if i'm not wrong) and we turned it into an outing.

Destination? East Coast Park (ECP). Activity? Cycling. Mission? Visit Area H. Why Area H? I told them it is a nice place to visit and from what i described, they said they wanted to visit too. We planned to meet at around noon at Bedok Bus Interchange but the 3 of us were late and guess what? We met after 1pm, heh! It's a girls' thing ^^

We had our tummies filled before making a move to ECP from Bedok. $2 for a bowl of Mee Soto was what i had. Oh not forgetting apple juice. Fruit juices, always the best! It was still drizzling when we got there so we decided to chill for a while at MacDonald's. Not long after that we started our cycling session. Half way through, the sky cleared and the weather was just perfect; not too hot, not too cold. Just nice.

Going down hill/slope; the fun part. Going up hill/slope; na-uh, not so fun. We had a few glitches here and there but everything's alright. Since it rained before we started our cycling session, there were puddles of water along the way. Like what Imm San said, "It's nature." :)

We're fast i must. We rented our bikes from a shop at Area C and it took us an hour to reach Area H at normal speed. Awesome! We did not manage to walk over to "another island" but we managed to see the place. Area H, stunningly beautiful. Very nature-istic. Oh yes, we did something awesome; we went over to the water breaker and we go, "1,2,3, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" Yes, we shouted/screamed/yelled our lungs out. It was awesome i tell you! It feels like your troubles are washed away. I feel more relaxed after that. Thanks to Imm San for suggesting this!

Yi Zhen was busy looking for shells and we joined here. Pretty shells! So small, so cute! Not forgetting the big pile of seaweed that we saw on the shore. And yes, the planes too! One planes, Qantas to be exact was super near to us which then i say, "I guess we're next to be on board the plane to Australia!" Can't wait!

I had a great day with the girls and i hope our next outing will be a success. Where to next? Pulau Ubin! Woooooohooooo! :D

Not a bad thing after all,

2011-10-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

It may not be something that i might pursue as my career but whatever it is, i'll go through this path with determination, confidence. Learning something different/out of your interest isn't a bad thing after all.

Will do a proper update soon, take care readers.

Catching up,

2011-10-09T19:38:00.001+08:00

Had a great time with my dear Ared yesterday. His 3rd book out. To Town again. I went to support my dear babygirl, Dian. She opened a flea market at Scape yesterday. So yup, first stop, to support her! ^^

After that, shopping with dear Ared!

H&M jeans + H&M brown sleeveless top + H&M red headband + Boho-looking sleeveless top + Camera necklace + Leaf necklace + Reddish bag = yesterday's menu!

Oh yeah, we got ourselves a matching bag, hehe. He bought it for me, awww :) Oh yes, and again this time when we're out, we went to catch a movie; Real Steel! It was awesome!

I never like when the day had to end while we were having fun. Meeting each other for once a week, isn't something easy for me. I'm very clingy.

So when meeting up, catching up is what i like to do.

"I just miss you so much" with the emotions. He's the sweetest.

-- -- -- --

So... school has started for me. It was alright for the first day. Tomorrow is Monday, so when tomorrow comes, it gets proper. I just got to get use to waking up early and such. My body clock still isn't in sync with school.

-- -- -- --

Did i mention that i met my dear primary school friend, Indah after 5 years of not meeting up!? Yes, we finally did on last Wednesday (5th Oct)!

Had a great time catching up with each other and sharing stories. We slacked at MacDonald's (Northpoint) after Indah came back from work.

It has been quite a while! Hopefully we could meet up again! Of course not 5 years later ^^

See you again babe! Misses :)

Cause i love taking photos,

2011-10-09T19:18:00.000+08:00

I like to check out fitting rooms of different places, hahaha.

No, i'm serious.

Bought this (^) pair of jeans from H&M for $39.90!

26 is still my size, yay!

A brown sleeveless top from H&M!

Boho-looking sleeveless top from Scape, Flea Market for $8!

From Scape, Flea Market for $3!

From Scape, Flea Market for $5!

When you don't have a proper place to chunk all your accessories,

Charles & Keith box to the rescue! ^^

Current nail color! OPI shatter :D I don't know how long this is going to last on my nails. Next color, prolly solid green; pastel shade.

Major,

2011-10-04T18:27:00.000+08:00

So yeah, major camwhoring mode on.

I went for my Basic Theory Practice this morning & i kinda screw it. Not purposely but because i was having a tummy ache and my mind was focusing on how do i comfort my tummy instead of taking the theory practice seriously. So i booked another one on this coming Friday.

I'm starting school this coming Thursday, it's my first day for Year 2 Sem 2 and it's also the one and only day i'm attending school for this week -.- So, i was bored when i got home and my fingers brought me to the school's website. I decided to read and understand more about the 3 modules that i'll be facing for this coming semester. It scares me somehow :/ But nonetheless, i'm up for the challenge. I just hope i won't lose the momentum.

I feel like shopping. I. just. need. to. buy. things. Girls... ^^, So yup, i might be asking my dear Ared to accompany when he book out this Saturday, i might only. I'll see hoe it goes. If not, we'll just chill & slack. Oh i miss him even more especially after he got enlisted. Oh well, a guy's life. I'll wait for him.

When school starts, i gotta juggle my time for myself, my family, my friends, my boyfriend, my school and also my driving. Phew! I can do this! Woooooooooooooo! I just need to know how my school timetable would be like.

Okay, a random update for today. Take care readers.

Cause i love taking photos,

2011-10-03T16:45:00.000+08:00

Taken on 29th September 2011.

@ East Coast Park, Area H.

Beautiful place ♥

Goodnight,

2011-10-02T22:38:00.001+08:00

Text messages from dear Ared.

(After he got to know that a few of his army friends just had a breakup)

" Haisshh... Many cases of breakups sia.. :( im scared! "

(Replied him & he replied this)

" Just telling anyways dear.. But not to worry..

I know you won't leave me.. :) I trust you bi.. Btw, i da sampai tau bi.. :( "

(After having a chat on the phone before lights out for a good almost 15 minutes)
" Hey baby.. Thank you once again for the talk.. You comfort me alot..

Thank you again dear.. I love you..

Goodnight my dear!

Sweetdreams my love! *hugs* "

-- -- --

I've never had a guy who is so afraid of losing me.

I'm proud that i am with him now :')

Till we meet again, next week after you book out.

Pssst, baby, remember you saying you're obsess with me? It's the same for me. Look, each time i browse for apps in my iPod, i see who? I see you, my love.

Town,

2011-10-02T20:41:00.001+08:00

I won't talk about the unpleasant 'surprise' that happened last night.

Let's summarize what happened yesterday.

So, yesterday was my dear Ared's second book out. We met up at around 5-ish in the afternoon. We headed to town. Since it was a Saturday, the crowd was, you know -.- We went on the wrong day but nevertheless, we had a great time together.

We had our tummies filled at Sakura Cuisine, Far East Plaza. Kway Teow Dendeng for me & dry beef kway teow for him. Dendeng, always the best (Y) After our tummies are happy, we walked around. Yeah, that's the purpose of our visit to town. Just waking and spending time together.

We actually wanted to catch a movie at Cineleisure (Cine) but the timings were not in sync with us. We could have watched it there anytime but we're not going to ton there or anywhere else. No transportation other than taxis to get back to Yishun. So we give it a pass and walked around Cine & also Scape cause there were flea markets going on. In total i bought, 3 rings, 1 headband and 2 colorful ear studs. All of it with bf's help. Oh yes, not forgetting, we got ourselves Golden Ovaltine from Gong Cha each. My most favorite drink from Gong Cha!

After strolling/walking around Town, we took a train back to Yishun & decided to catch a movie there. We watched 'Friends with benefit'. The showtime was at 9:35pm and we bought the tix just minutes before the showtime, hehe! I will rate the movie, 7/10.

After movie, we slacked and chilled before bf sent me home. And by that time it was already almost 1:30am. I had a great time with him. Now, he's already back in camp and we'll be seeing each other again in a week's time. I can't wait!

Some of the photos taken are below. Taken with the front camera of my iPod (I know the front camera isn't as good as the back camera) Forgotten to snap pictures of our Golden Ovaltine, my rings & my headband.

My favorite photo of us for that day! ^^

He's the sweetest, period ♥

Bought this loose fit dream catcher top from Forever 21!

Changes,

2011-10-01T14:20:00.000+08:00

It's already October. Another month to look ahead in 2011. How's 2011 been for you all? It's been a not so good year for me. Something major happened between my family and things are still at its worse. Nevertheless, 2011 is also the year where i'm upgrading myself and feeling that i'm changing.

I feel that i've changed in terms of:-

1) How i dress.

2) How i view makeup as.

3) I feel more diligent to take care of my skin.

(Yes, i do spent on skincare products)

4) I feel a little old, but not old old. You get what i mean.

5) I feel that i'm a better sister and daughter to my sis and Mama respectively.

6) How often i want and also shop for things.

7) I feel more assured to continue and completing my 3-year Diploma course.

8) I challenge myself to take up driving licence (manual)

9) I learn how to cook certain dishes on my own.

10) I feel more independent.

And there are more.

Girls, i guess you would understand what i mean. I'm turning 19 this December. 12 months pass very fast and before i know it, 2012 comes and i'll be 20 ): But still, life goes on. A new step to everything. I can't wait but nervous at the same time. Yup, i have fear of growing up. I'm trying to accept things, slowly.

-- -- -- --

Pictures that i extract from my iPod. The newest ones.

My sister. And yes, we don't look alike. I get that always.

I follow our Papa, my sister follows our Mama.

I always envy her with her clear skin.

But still, i love myself ^^

-- -- --

Oh yes, school will be starting real soon. While the rest of my fellow school mates starts on the 5th of October, i'm starting mine on the 6th! But the not-so-awesome part is that, lesson starts at 12:30pm. Never like afternoon lessons -.-

I somehow can't wait for school to start. Nevous at the same time. Just excited of the new modules that i'll be going through!

Till the next update. Take care!

IT noob,

2011-09-28T23:36:00.004+08:00

Hi, i'm an IT noob. I got myself an iTouch recently if you've been following. I got myself an iTouch cause firstly, i think it looks sleek-ish-ly cool. Secondly, it acts as both mp3 and a portable game thingy. Thirdly, it's 32GB and i could store many things from games to apps to photos to videos and many more. Lastly, i like the touch sensitivity of apple products.

To be honest, i know nuts about iTunes or whatever that comes along when you get an apple product. I used to have iTunes just to store my songs but after a while i deleted it cause i was still using my red mp3 player and it works well with just storing music in folders. I still have my red mp3 with me though and it's still working very well. I'm not gonna give it to anyone, it shall be my spare now. Just in case i'm too lazy to charge my iTouch and such.

So................. guess what? I manage to jailbreak it myself! I wanted to downgrade my iPod version to 4.3.3 but after trying out once, i revert back to my original version. I almost lost my iPod :( It's scary shit. Mine is tethered jailbreak though but still, good enough. I've already got songs, photos, videos and even some games in my iPod now. Yay me! I was so independent trying out myself and of course with me asking around for suggestions and such.

I must say, not bad for an IT noob like me ^^

It's almost 12am now. I'm waiting for midnight to pass to check on LEO. I want to check my timetable and class roster. 3 modules for me for this coming sem, hohoho! Not forgetting, i'll be meeting Wani in the afternoon; tomorrow. Seems like we're heading to ECP.

And when 29th September 2011 comes, it'll be 2 more days till dear Ared books out, yay! I'm glad to hear his feeling better now. Pity him but i know he's strong :)

Alright, just minutes to midnight.

P/S I'm still excited about me being independent.

The wait,

2011-09-27T13:53:00.003+08:00

I sent my for service yesterday at Funan. The problems that the IT people are helping to resolve; battery problem & sound problem. Sound is still under warranty. But if it happens that the battery problem cannot be diagnosed than i just have to let it be. I could get a replacement with an amount to pay. How much? $250. Yes, $250 for just the battery. Battery is not under warranty. But at least i bought it from school, i have 3 years warranty. So long the laptop can last me using power, i'm alright.

I was told that my laptop needs to be "hospitalized" for about 2-4 days. Guess what? I received a text message from Fujistu Premium Centre that i could already collect my laptop. Yay! I got a feeling my laptop isn't reboot/reformatted.

I will be collecting it today! Happy kid!

Oh yes, i finally got my iTouch a matte finish screen protector. Once my laptop is back i can start updating my iTouch with songs and games/apps.

-- -- -- --

I received a text message from dear Ared at 9 plus in the morning. He's sick ): We got to talk on the phone at around 1pm after his lunch :') He have seen the doctor and he has to let go of his NAPFA which means he can only book out on a later time. Never mind, at least he gets to rest. Get well soon dear *peluk-s*

Will be back,

2011-09-26T15:28:00.000+08:00

Dear Ared booked in yesterday. It's a weekly thing till he has to go overseas and such. I can do this. I got to meet him before he went to meet his army friends. After a while of not having lunch at Pastamania, we finally did yesterday.

He sent me a text message after going our separate ways. He teared while typing down the message. I'm a lucky girl who has a boyfriend who misses her dearly :') 3 Years plus together and come to think of it, i wish this could last forever.

Till we meet again dearest :)

Much love with misses.

-- -- -- --

Alright, this is my last post before sending my laptop for servicing in about 2 hours time. Will update once i got my laptop back. Prolly in about a week's time.

Take care readers.

All at one go,

2011-09-25T12:01:00.001+08:00

Hi people, how are you all doing? I'm doing good. Still coping with whatever that i have to face everyday. Anyway, yesterday was alright. I was just bored. You know it sucks to be staying at home for a long time knowing you're an extrovert.

What happened on 23rd September 2011 in a gist:

Met up with Wani > Went around Northpoint and SSC > Bought an iTouch (32GB) for myself! > Slacked @ Yishun Splash Park? > His first book out; Met dear Ared.

I was extra happy on that day! So yup, i got myself an iTouch. I won't be getting an iPhone once my contract ends. I'm gonna upgrade to using an Android phone & at the same time upgrade my plan. Can't wait for January 2012; new phone! Come to think of it, 2 years contract is quite a long while huh especially with the advance of technology. Crazy.

Thanks to Wani also for giving me purple iTouch cover! I know red is my favorite color but i'm saving that for my new phone ^^

So yup, Wani did accompany me under Ared's block when he went up to put his stuff and change out of uniform. We took a bus, Wani went back while Ared and myself continued our journey to Yishun Interchange.

We went to catch a movie, "Fright Night" at 11:45pm. The movie was great! So yup, MacDonald's for supper & we than slacked at Starbucks. It's a good time to slack at Starbucks after 11pm cause you don't have to fight for seats and also plugs. We made a move at around 5 plus in the morning. Ared sent me home. It's been a while since i last had that :')

-- -- -- --

Well, if you have been reading my blog, my poor Lifebook will be hospitalized for maybe a week starting this Monday.

"Health" issues my Lifebook is facing: 'Unsound' & "Consider replacing your battery. Your battery is having problems which might cause your laptop to shut down suddenly"

I just hope both of it covers in the warranty. I got a feeling it will be covered. My friends have confirmed my thoughts too. I'll be sending my dear Lifebook on the 26th.

I saved all my files just in case i have to lose everything while my Lifebook have to go through 'surgery'.

-- -- -- --

Did you all know there's Baskin Robbins at Novena?

I got to know recently. This was early of September.

Went over there with my Mama.

Yummmmmm!

Heart thumping,

2011-09-23T14:24:00.001+08:00

So, since it's the 23rd, i woke up feeling happy. Why? Cause dear Ared will be booking out tonight! Oh i am a happy kid who is like having big delicious choco bar with it smudging the whole mouth. But... he's booking out at night. I'll only be able to meet him around 11pm. Since it's late, we'll be catching a movie. Prolly Fright Night.

Since i'll be meeting him late at night, i guess i might be doing some shopping or what you can also call, retail therapy. Sounds a little more classy huh? Haha. I got no idea to get anyway so i guess i might be splurging. Ah, girls problem?

It's 2:21pm as i'm typing this sentence. I've been hearing from friends saying that UT3 results will be released today. I went on to check my email but i receive no notification about the release of results. So i went on to check my student admin & it's true, they're processing my results at the moment. *points to the pic below* (right click for the picture to appear bigger on a new tab)

Saw my GPA? I guess that's my overall GPA for the whole of my Year 1 and Year 2 Semester 1. IMPROVED! I IMPROVED! Not much but there's improvements. I'm satisfied. I'm just waiting to know my grades for each of my modules.

Today; improvement in GPA + bf's booking out, gonna meet him = perfect combo! ^^

-- -- -- --

Vivo Skypark plus Starbucks = perfect combo!

New semester kicking in,

2011-09-22T10:00:00.000+08:00

So... it's already the 22nd & school is going to start soon. This equals to UT3 results coming out & also the class allocation. Owh ): I don't want to change class. This always happens each time a new semester will be kicking in. However, since my course have about 50 to 60 of us, we will still be mingling with each other.

Half of me wants school to start, the other half of me do not want school to start. I'm normal right?

Cause i love taking photos.

2011-09-21T17:03:00.002+08:00

Thanks to Kimmy for her camera!

New works to my learning journey.

Taken at Marina Barrage.

Runaway bride?

Egg-si-li-cious.

Burst.

Unsound,

2011-09-21T15:27:00.000+08:00

I've just had my tagboard up. Again. I'll see how it goes. If nothing bad goes on, i might continue with having tagboard, if not, i'll take it down. No spams alright.

I haven't been out of the house for the whole of yesterday and today will be another day and prolly tomorrow too. I'm bored. It sucks to be an extrovert with no plans going on. Nevertheless i've been having fun going out with friends. The latest was cycling session with my E46(-) friends. It was more of a bike familiarization session kind of thing. So guess what? I've finally gotten the hang to ride a bicycle! Yay! I stopped cycling when i was in Primary 5 but i picked it up again when i'm turning 19 ^^

So yup, as you all can see from my previous post, today my relationship with Ared turns 3. You don't know how happy i am. No meet up cause he's still in camp but i received a call from him this morning at 6:37am wishing us our 3rd! :') How sweet. We'll be seeing each other in 2 days time! Can't wait!

So ........ since i'm not going out, my lifebook will be my companion but my lifebook is as good as almost dead because the sound isn't working ): It sucks to have your day going on without music blasting off from your lifebook. I'll be sending my dear lifebook to service on this coming 26th with Mama accompanying me.

I'm updating randomly just to kill time. No music = no life -.-

Take care readers.

Happy 3rd baby,

2011-09-21T00:05:00.001+08:00

It's the 21st today.

Ever since 21st September 2008, it has always been a favorite part of my life to see us grow each month and each year. I didn't think we could go this far.

It was love at first sight for my dear Ared but it was the opposite for me. My love for him grew only about 6 months into the relationship. He knows it. But nevertheless, we stayed and continued with the relationship. What's funny is that, our friendship lasted for less than a month! Interesting.

This isn't my first relationship and same goes for him. He ever told me that the relationship he's having with me is the best and he could ask for nothing more. I only felt that our relationship is really special only about a month after he declared that. Yes, it always take me a while to feel something. Well ya, i have walls build around me so i took a while to take things in and i'm glad he's been helping me with that.

We had our 'firsts' in certain things; breaking fast, buffet, botanic garden, ECP, ton, seeing myself in cycling action, myself wearing a head wear when i'm out with him, ice cream treat, shopping, first movie on our 11th months, Vivo city, Henderson wave, Sentosa, Orchard Central, Woodlands Waterfront and many more.

To add on to that, the latest is that being apart from one another for almost 3 weeks. NS 'kills' me. It's sad that we won't be able to see each other in person on our 3rd but it's heartening to hear that you never fail to talk about out coming 3rd anniversary.

Ever since you were enlisted, your calls & text messages seems to be "filled with tears" be it happy and/or sad.

You know i remember your words:-

When the conversation started,

"Hello baby."

"Hi sayang."

In between the conversation,

"I miss you."

"B... do you think of me?"

"I love you b."

"B... you miss me?"

When the conversation has to end,

"Awwww.. i don't like this part..."

"I know you're going to cry after this, don't cry b."

"Hugs."

Your voice quivered.

It's sweet when your boyfriend teared because he misses his girlfriend.

That girl must be lucky and that girl is, me.

Baby, it's 2 more days till you book out and we'll be able to meet each other after a long while.

I can't wait for that day, i just can't wait. When 23rd September 2011 comes, i'll be smiling widely couting down to the time where our eyes will meet, our hands will lock, sweet forehead kisses and our bodies will be close and having the warm hugs that i've been missing all these while.

Well baby, here's a video specially dedicated to you.

I know you won't be able to view this on our 3rd itself but for sure you'll be seeing this on the 23rd together with me. Cause i know you want to hug me after viewing this, hehe!

Happy 3rd anniversary baby!

You've been highly-superbly-awesomely-great all these years! :)

Much loves,

Atin

Participated,

2011-09-20T21:21:00.000+08:00

I've been a fan of Bubz Beauty. Always look forward to her next video upload.

I will always go to her blog whenever i'm free to check for any interesting updates;

makeups are loved!

So about her giveaway of Bubbi brushes and thought of participating too! ^^

I hope i'll be the lucky one. Hehe. All the best to everyone participating!

Watch the 2nd episode of #olay360 to see how celebrity bloggers combat pigmentation with skin care & makeup!

2011-09-20T19:09:00.000+08:00

Watch the 2nd episode of #olay360 to see how celebrity bloggers combat pigmentation with skin care & makeup!

How much longer?

2011-09-20T18:28:00.000+08:00

Yes, how much longer must i endure all this? I thought i could be strong and ..... but i guess i'm wrong. It's not that i'm not contented with what i have but the feeling of having your privacy being taken away, cramping your style and also being me. I feel cooped within the 4 walls and i hardly can be myself. The only time for me to be myself is when i'm out of the house.

No doubt i am happier here but yeah, i miss having my own personal space. I'm 19 soon. Just how long more? Sigh.

Dear Ared,

2011-09-18T21:44:00.004+08:00

31st March 2010.

6th November 2010.

18th March 2011.

Just 2 days before you were enlisted.

It has been exactly 12 days since we last met.

3 more days to our 3rd anniversary.

5 more days till you book out = meeting each other.

NS 'kills' me. I miss you like crazy :'(

I've made videos for us before and while you were (you are still though) at camp, i did 2 more videos for you. Yes, specially for you.

I have a youtube channel just for me to post the videos that i made for us. I've got 2 videos in my channel currently. I've yet to upload the 2 new videos that i've made. Will upload it soon.

http://www.youtube.com/atiin14

I'm doing a 5th video for us but this time round not with Windows Live Movie Maker. I'm using Adobe Premiere. The video is in the process & this video is going to take a while... :)

E36B-ians meetup,

2011-09-16T19:46:00.000+08:00

This will be my second & last post for today. Picnic @ Marina Barrage with the E36B peeps! There were 8 of us; myself, Kimmy, Nizam, Yizhen, Imm San, Daryl, Syafiq & Jeremy.

Sadly, Syafiq had to leave early.

Oh yes, we alighted at Novena instead of Marina Bay but at least we did not waste our trip to Novena. We bought food and snacks @ Fairprice & we cabbed down to Marina Barrage. Nizam went straight to meet us there.

Too much food, snacks but still the day was well spent. We talked, laughed, played games, munch munch & not forgetting moving places, 3 times i think? But anyways, the last place that we moved was at level 1, the 'water play' area. Fun fun fun! If only we were kids, the only thing we think about would just be about playing. Childhood days, memories ~

Photo taking time! Waited for Sunset and it was beautiful, just beautiful. Not forgetting, we saw an owl! Yes, a real life owl just above us (it was quite far to snap a photo of it) but viewing wise, it's actually near. Omg yay! I saw an owl, a real one! Heh heh heh.

Photo credits: Kimmy & Nizam & to whoever else who holds any of the 2 cameras to snap any photos! ^^

Photos are not according to time (not all photos are here)

Enjoy!

Thank you for the day friends. I enjoyed myself :D

Smurfs,

2011-09-16T19:15:00.000+08:00

14th September 2011.

I had a day out with dear FatinFilzah. Finally, i got to watch movie. So on that day we decided on 'Smurfs'. Meeting place was at Vivo City. She reached earlier so she went to get the tickets. I manage to reach before the movie starts.

How's the movie? Awesome! A must watch. I love how the story has lessons that were taught indirectly. While watching the movie, we got coke & popcorns to accompany us.

Something interesting happened. There were 2 ladies (i think) that were happily recording/video-taping the movie. They were recording for almost every part of the movie. The more interesting part was that, the movie was ending in just a few minutes and the 2 of them were still recording it and there was actually a lady (staff) standing right behind them looking at them recording. The 2 ladies did not realize it (it was for almost 5 minutes!) until the staff had to voice out, "Give me your phone!" Seriously, the 2 ladies looked super dumb (Sorry but its true)

We proceed with shopping (includes window shopping, okay, duh). Oh wait no, before that we had our tummies filled at Long John's Silver (LJS)! Crazy on Potatoes and clamp chowder for me. LJS cheese is the best! and we also bought Starbucks and chill at Vivo Skypark before heading home.

What do we do when we're chilling? Camwhoring! I did upload the photos. They're below (not all are here) Photo credits to: FatinFilzah. (I did manage to take some of her photos too, heh)

Enjoy!

Thank babe, i enjoyed the day with you :)

After months,

2011-09-14T23:57:00.002+08:00

Hi. After months, we finally got the time to catch up with one another yesterday, 13th September 2011. We headed to Town & surprisingly H&M wasn't as pack as how i see like 2 days before? Okay.... So, H&M? It's just like a mix of F21, New look and maybe Uniqlo but i guess it's another place to shop. Will still visit though.

We met up at Orchard and went to have lunch first. Hungry! After filling in our tummies, we began our shopping. F21 was our major medicine! We took quite a while in there; looking at stuff, thinking to get it or not, comparing it with other designs etc. Girls..... will always be girls. We went, "Ahhhhhhhhh!" over certain tops/designs. Yes, we literally did that. So i guess we do still somehow share same taste in shopping for items.

We bought our items than we went down to check out at H&M. My goodness, if only we have extra cash, we would have 'bomb' the place there. Quite a few stuff attracted our attention. We did not buy anything in the end but i think we did spend quite a while there o.O

We did have a lot to catch up. After hours of walking at Town we head back to Yishun & slack for a while at McDonald, McCafe. Chilled for a while and than walk home.

I enjoyed the day spent with her. Till we meet again. Prolly next week? ^^

-- --

Oh yes, today i went out with another babe of mine, Filzah. Will update about our outing soon!

For you, Ared.

2011-09-12T23:09:00.000+08:00

I miss you like crazy dear Ared )':

Around 11 more days to your book out. Till we meet again dearest.

Much loves.

Makeups,

2011-09-12T15:18:00.000+08:00

I've been hearing a lot about people saying that girls with makeup on are fake. You know, sometimes it takes one to know one. And another thing, guys are guys, girls are girls. We have our ways to express ourselves. We have our favorite things to do (you know, cars are for guys and riding are not for girls kind of statement).

Girls with makeup on are fake. Correct? Wrong. From my point of view, makeups also falls under the category of interest and also a way of expressing one's self. Personally, i love makeups. I love looking at makeups, i love watching people having makeup on, i love watching makeup tutorial videos. To put it simple, i just love makeups! I've been wanting to get my hands on Chanel makeup products but it's on the high side for me. I just have to wait a little longer for that to happen.

Okay, coming back to the topic. I ever wondered why people think that girls with makeup on are fake. Some of the reasons that i found out are below:-

1) They don't look natural.

2) They are not confident of how they look. (They want to look pretty)

3) They want to look like their idols.

4) They want to feel belonged/accepted within their cliques.

5) They are like attention-seekers.

Those 5.... well, it might be true to some girls but not all. I repeat, some and not all.

Judging can cause 'harm' to some other people. I know, humans do have the tendency to judge other people and sometimes we just don't realize that we are doing it too. People can accept what they do and not when others do it although what they are doing are the same.

Makeups is an art. You need to skills to do it. Makeup is also another way to express one's self. Makeup is also another way of enhancing the beauty that we girls have. People have imperfections, people have flaws. Living example; me. I have acne scars. If people know me personally, they will know and see for themselves that i have acne scars. I have makeup on but my acne scars can still be seen. I know my cheeks area has acne scars but i use my eyes to enhance how i look. You know, girls are girls. No matter what, they still want to look good. You can't blame us.

My makeup look changes in different situations/occasions.

No eyeliner, just almost white eyeshadow to wake my eyes up. This is when i'm usually out feeling sleepy. I feel that, when you're sleepy & you put too much makeup on, you'll look...... terrible.

Black eyeliner on both my upper and lower lids to give that dark eye look. This is when i feel like going a little more dramatic. If i am a little more hardworking, i will add eyeshadow for a smokey eye look.

This was during a performance. So you see, makeups are also done to bring out one's character during a performance and also to suit the theme of the performance.

I do have times where i go out, naturally :)

People always have the misconception of girls having makeup on. Makeups are not entirely meant for hiding/covering up acne scars/zits/redness/blemishes. Makeup is like an art; colors, shades, blending. You need skills to do it. Makeup is more than just hiding or covering up. Makeups is also a way for us girls to express ourselves. #neverjudge
- Fatin Mariam

Finally,

2011-09-11T21:19:00.000+08:00

Alright people, this will be my last post for today!

I finally had some sushi today! Photos are below. I didn't know Hei Sushi at SSC outlet have take away menu -.- It's a good thing my Mama discovered it or i would think of going down to IMM to take away sushi. How dumb.

But nevertheless i'm delighted to know SSC has it. It's so near to my place and i have a free shuttle bus to get there! ^^

-- -- -- --

I've turned 18 on December 2010. I procrastinate and procrastinate and procrastinate and procrastinate and procrastinate before coming to a decision only in Sept 2011 when i'm turning 19 in December 2011.

I've finally enrolled to a driving school! It took me almost a year to do this! -.-

So yup, i'm taking Class 3. Class 2 was what i initially wanted but i wasn't allowed. Mama do not allow. Grandparents do no allow. Even my boyfriend do not allow. So yeah. I scrapped that off, it's okay, it's alright.

Class 3 (manual). I've received the schedule and such. I could already start tomorrow. Going for the classroom lesson before taking my BTT. I think i shall just do it through e-learning.

I'm excited and nervous at the same time. But i know i want this. Wish me luck! ^^

Products,

2011-09-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

If you have read my previous post, remember me saying that Mama and I got away to Northpoint? Yup, alright. I went to look for some products.

Here are the products that i bought this month to try.

T3 Acne Serum Scar.

Bought at Watsons for $9.00 (U.P $12.10)

I got it cheaper because of the offer going on & my mama is a member.

Which means, extra offer! ^^

I hope this shows results. Having acne scars is no joke.

Ginvera Whitening Marvel Gel.

Bought at Watsons for about $3 less than the original price. Yup, offer.

U.P $16.80

I've been looking for a product where i could have daily exfoliation and i found this.

Tried it twice already & so far so good.

My skin did feel smoother and feels cleaner.

Tea Tree Mud Mask.

Bought at Watsons for $2.90/per pack.

I think this is a new brand that i've seen in Watsons.

I want to give it a try.

Who knows it has positive effects on me, i might just switch to using this? ^^

L'oreal True Match powder in shade W4.

Bought at Watsons for $21.90! (U.P $27.90)

I have not tried this. Will try it once my Maybelline powder has 'died'

Its dying anyway, so ya.

I think you all can guess that Watson was having kind of sale going on. I came at the right time i suppose. The products above, this month tryouts for me!

Bali Thai with my family,

2011-09-11T20:31:00.008+08:00

Cute huh? Elmo and Plants VS Zombies earphones!

Bought them with sis at West Mall for $16 for both!

Sound quality? Not bad i must say.

I'm not sure how long it will last but no doubt, we bought it for its cuteness!

#2 post for 11th Sept 2011.

So hi again people.

Yesterday, 10th Sept 2011, my family and i had our lunch at Bali Thai, West Mall outlet. Mama's treat! She got a pay increment, thank God!

It was my second visit to the restaurant. I actually quite like the food. It was a short day actually but Mama and myself left the 3 of them (grandparents and sis) for Northpoint to get away. Not get away to run away but just to kill time. The 3 of them left for home after doing some grocery shopping at NTUC.

Photos are below. Enjoy!

What we ordered ^^

Mineral water to start off with!

Belinjau! My favorite! Bitter-taste crackers.

Tahu Telor! Oh yeah!

Grandparents!

Mama and sis!

Blueberry freeze! This is awesome!!!! (Y)

Mango salad. Had my first try and its actually not that bad. Spicy spicy taste ^^

Pandan chicken! Another of my favorite!

Look alike satay! Its delicious!

Tom Yum! Perfect!

Sis & myself!

I had a good time with them. Walked around for a while before going off. Oh not forgetting, Mama bought mooncake. Have yet to eat it though. Will have it tomorrow! Chocolate mint mooncake! Got to try before buying it. The service was good!

$7.50 for the mooncake. I wanted to post a picture of it but i couldn't find it. I'll post the picture soon yeah?

Used to be 868-ers,

2011-09-11T20:03:00.007+08:00

Hi people.

I'm gonna update quite a few things in different posts, so here i go.

#1 for 11th Sept 2011.

Alright, first up; outing with Dear Dian! Sadly, another babygirl of mine wasn't able to join us but anyways, i did enjoyed my day with her. Initially, the plan was to watch a movie. Rumors between us was FD5 but Dian checked the seats and nah, it wasn't "appealing" so we scrap that plan off. It's a lucky thing we're at Town. Well at least there are places to go and not just slacking under a void deck.

Orchard was our stop. I came earlier so i waited for her. While i was waiting, Chanel was staring at me. O-M-G. I've been wanting to have that brand in my possession. Well of course not the brand name but the items/products. I just think Chanel is pretty. I stared for quite a while actually.

When she arrived, we head to Far East Plaza to have our tummies filled. After eating it was followed by a manicure session for just $4! *points below*

The color on my nails now! ^^ Bright orange-red!

After the manicure session which i must say i waited for quite a while cause people have filled up the spaces, we had mini shopping; rings for $1 each! (Will post the photos up soon) Look around for items & i have my eyes on a few, nyeheh!

I wanted to take a look at H&M but the crowd.................. was a major turn off; too crowded! Nah, passed. That was the time when we head to Cineleisure. Yup, the rings! Bought from there. OPI nail polish were selling at $10 per bottle. Wanted to grab it but i don't feel comfortable with the crowd. I can't take time to choose, so yeah. Loads of rings & necklaces sold at different shops or should i say stalls.

I did had fun & enjoyed myself. Thank you for the day Sis. We'll meet again soon, loves.

Photos below and credits to Dian (:

Be the trend setter and get your friends to hop on board with #ChurpChurp! :)

2011-09-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

Be the trend setter and get your friends to hop on board with #ChurpChurp! :)

Come join us! ^^

Can i cope?

2011-09-08T18:05:00.001+08:00

I'm dead bored at home. I have no plans today. I got so much time on hand today but i wasn't being productive at all. How wasted. Well, at least i did some laundry. That's the only productive thing i did today i suppose. Oh wait, does reading up about portfolios count? I think it does. But the good thing is that, i got to eat sambal crab! Yummmmmmmmmm ~

So yes, i was so interested to know how or what

do i need in my portfolio. I remembered my mentor sharing a few links to read up on how to come up with a portfolio. Interesting ~ The thought of moving on to Year 2 Semester 2 in less that a month's time scares me a little; more work, more time needed, projects, cracking heads, research, sacrificing your leisure time/days, burning midnight oil? = busy days ahead. If a friend of mine hadn't reminded me of what we'll be going through the next semester, my plans will all go to waste.

So now, i'm still thinking if i should get a job? Part-time job of course. Well because i thought of taking my car licence. No kakis to go with me but i gue

ss i'll be independent than. I think i'll take under school. DC? I'm still deciding but i somehow have a rough idea where i want to enroll.

Full-time studying + Part-time job + Driving lessons = can i cope?

Your views people, thank you.

So a quick update about what i've been up to yesterday. It was E46(-) class outing but it turns out to be only 6 of us (me, Soap, Hsuan, Nizam, Aananda, Sam) and Shah who came to meet us after our movie.

Initially we wanted to watch 'Smurfs' but the seating ........... nah-uh, so much to the front. From The Cathay we moved to Plaza Sing, checked out the seats and it's worse. So..... we decided to change the movie to, 'Horrible Bosses'. Before the movie which started at 7:30pm, we hang out at Starbucks. I finally got my Raspberry blackcurrant juice drink! Heaven ~

Now i understand why its M18 but all in all the movie was funny! Stomach cramped halfway while watching the movie. Thumbs up. After the movie we than head to KFC than back home.

Our next outing is tentatively, night cycling. I'm not sure if it's gonna happen but if its happening, make sure it's not just the 6 of us. I want it to be at least half the class. Night cycling with many people than it will be fun. I hope this event works!

Alright, i shall end it here? I still don't know what to do next. I hope tomorrow my babygirls can make it. Till the next post, take care.

It begins.

2011-09-08T13:48:00.000+08:00

Above, from Facebook. Last before he went to his camp this morning.

Above, from Tweetdeck. This was last night.

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Well baby, your journey begins now. We'll meet again in about 2 weeks time. Take care, you'll be alright. No worries, no BMT from me. You get what i mean :)

I'm missing you. I love you.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Ared bbb.

2011-09-07T12:45:00.003+08:00

Misses ♥

You, Ared.

2011-09-06T20:55:00.003+08:00

I'll have to learn to be independent for that someone who has been there for me riding the highs and lows of life. A new lease of life for you. I'll be waiting dear. Loves & misses.

Tinit tinit.

2011-09-06T19:31:00.013+08:00

I had 2 awesome-ly great days with Ared. I enjoyed the 2 days. We managed to try the Walls bicycle! (Wall-C-cle) So fun! I had a little battle with trying to control the Wall-C-cle but i guess i did okay? HA. It was expensive renting the Wall-C-cles. Guess how much? $30/hr. I know it sounds crazy but if you go with the right people (if you get what i mean) your $30 won't go to waste. Ared says that this will be a test for my future driving lessons. HAHA.

Sidetrack, i'm thinking of getting a car licence. Mama have given me the green light to take! I'm paying it though but i think its better this way so i will know how important to take the licence seriously.

Okay, back to the topic, So, we bought snacks at Bedok & head to ECP. Oh yes, we bought this huge box of Gobstopper! Nomnom! Scroll below to see it, i posted a photo of it. We cycled with all our stuff. Enough space to even spread the items. I guess we won't have fun if we rented the double-seater bicycle. Oh, i love the horn *tinit tinit* HEHE. It even came off while we were riding the wall-C-cle.

We bought food for dinner at the food center and after returning the bicycle we went to have our dinner. Quiet moments. It's been like this for many months. Eating and talking at the same time with him can get me irritated at times. It's just him, so yeah. After eating than we pitch the tent. Spent the night talking, crapping, laughing, being truthful, accompanying each other for toilet visits, lying down doing nothing, playing with 'small sun', and just with each other side by side. Perfect. No disturbance.

No proper sleep but the time spent is precious. Woke up, packed, bathed and off to have breakfast at McDonald, Tampines. I finally get to eat Big Breakfast! Ared had hotcakes with sausage and i guess he can be my partner eating hotcakes with garlic chilli. I love to eat weird combinations of food. For some only lah of course. After breakfast we took 969 back to Yishun and he sent me home even with tent which is heavy i must say :')

I waited for him to reach home before i went to sleep. Super exhausted. Slept at about 12:3opm and waking up at about 4:30pm. I could have slept longer but i was awoken up. When i woke up, my whole body cramped. And is still is. Cramps all over. Head feels giddy. Feels like vomiting. Double vision. I just don't feel very good.

I just need more rest i guess. Will be tucking in early tonight.

Okay, some of the photos are below. The rest in FB. Till here, enjoy.

The cat is always at the toilet in Area F. Super cute!

It even came up to me hoping to get food while i was waiting for the uncle to finish cleaning the toilet before i have my quick body rinse ^^

The Red PUMA bag that have been with me since i was in my lower Secondary days.

Fried kway teow/Fried mee with extra egg! Yummmm!

The huge box of Gobstopper! Awesome! And it's only $2.05!

It's tough when i have no choice but not being able to meet Ared for about 2 weeks.

We're gonna stay strong.

2011-09-02T21:48:00.011+08:00

I've just played around and changed my blog layout. I kind of love it though i'm not that satisfied cause it's not exactly as how i want it to be. But at least it shows a camera. It's not mine anyway. I used the template design found in blogger itself. I'm not in the mood to come up with my own blogskin. Will make do with this at the moment.

So..... it's almost 10pm now. I've been surfing the net, watching make up tutorials, skin care routine, music vids etc. My grands are going crazy over soccer. I don't have to watch it cause people will be updating it on Twitter as well. I heard screams from neighbors. Well, that's scary.

I've just updated a new side bar titled 'Favorite links!'. Those links are my current favs for basically make ups. I love make ups but i just don't do it on my face all the time. I just love looking at how the colors mixed and such. I love everything about make up. I wish i could learn it professionally and be a make up artist (as my side line in future).

But anyways, Raya this year is so different, very different. Words can't really describe how different it is. It's different but in a more negative way. Ah, whatever it is, i'm done with it. I'm not going to add more sins to the ones i've committed. Well, at least i had fun on the first day of Hari Raya; meeting up with my relatives from my Papa's side, seeing them getting shocked over my age cause they thought i'm still in secondary school, getting questions on when am i going to get married, getting compliments and receiving love from them. I'm not close with them but i do love them and appreciate the help they've been giving for many years.

I still receive ka-chings though i'm turning 19! Probably because i'm still studying. This year, i receive a lot more. Thank God. I kept 95% of the amount in my second bank today. When the receipt was printed out, i was delighted to see the amount shown on the receipt. Constant saving helps! :') Alhamdulillah! I thank my Mama for having me to have 2 bank accounts; one for spending and the other one for saving. I'm going to keep up with saving. Biar duit itu tidak digunakan, sekurang-kurangnya ingat, sediakan payung sebelum hujan.

Let's see about tomorrow; Saturday. I doubt i'll be going out. Grands will be out though. I guess i shall do the cooking for lunch tomorrow? I'll see how. And as for Sunday, going to the cemetry to visit Papa :') It has been years since i last went to visit him. Insyallah i'll be able to visit him this Sunday. Thanks to Abg Fifi for initiating this.

Till here, will update again. Take care readers.

Hari Raya 2011 Favs,

2011-09-02T20:09:00.004+08:00

Fav photos for Hari Raya 2011.

And yes Papa, you're not forgotten. You're in the photo too but in our hearts <3 Miss you.

Hari Raya 2011.

2011-08-31T20:49:00.003+08:00

I haven't got the chance to update about my Raya, so here it goes, a short one.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all Muslims!

How's raya people? :)

I enjoyed myself.

Food, food, food & more food. Fuh! Enjoy to the max!

Have a great Syawal people!

2011-08-30T08:00:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Aidilfitri.

Maaf Zahir dan Batin kepada semua yang mengenali diriku.

Selamat Menyambut bulan Syawal dengan orang yang tersayang dan yang tercinta.

Makan minum tu lek jugak ah eh.

Makulumlah baru baru abis puase ni, perut masih lagi kecut, hehehehe.

Selamat Hari Raya semua! :D

Heels.

2011-08-28T22:20:00.001+08:00

Coming Raya wearing heels. What's the usual? Standby plasters! #standard

Drawing near,

2011-08-27T21:32:00.000+08:00

So.... today, my family and I head to Geylang Bazaar. We were out at around noon. The feeling of being there in the afternoon, syiok! Not many people around. We could walk around freely, plus the weather today is a bonus. Thank God.

Today was the second time i head to Geylang Bazaar this year. The crowd? Omgosh! It was oh-so-crowded when it was 2 plus in the afternoon especially at the Market. Oh well, people buying and doing last minute grocery shopping to prepare Raya dishes in like 3 days.

The outfits that my family and myself will be wearing for 2011 Raya.

Tailored! ^^ Love how the one doing the tailor works. Her workmanship is great!

The Henna that were bought from Geylang. Sister have been pestering to get this cause she wants to have henna drawn badly on her hands and legs.

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The mood for Raya isn't the same like 6 years back. But the others are still here for one another. I won't want to get emo here but the feeling of missing someone who is no longer around cannot be avoided especially if that person is you beloved Papa. We miss you Papa )': Hope you're doing great. Maybe you knew what happened to the family recently & i just wish i know the reason why.

Nenek always say let bygones be bygones, but in this case, NO. Don't try to tell me to let things go cause no one else understands how i feel. When you want things to happen, you need two hands to clap. But now...... things are going to change, drastically. I'm not sure how Raya will go this year but for sure, i'm looking forward to meet my cousins and relatives from my late Papa's side not forgetting my first 2 uncles and aunties together with my cousins. The monsters? Not part of my life dictionary. My life dictionary, different edition now.

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It's the 27th of August today.

2 more days :)

3 more days :D

9 more days :') + :'(

12 more days )':

I'm gonna miss you dearly.

This was us when we turn 15 months. As of this month, this was 20 months back.

Will we still be together 20 months down the road and longer? God Knows. I love you.

Almost the official end of Y2S1,

2011-08-25T14:17:00.002+08:00

AOS UT3 later at 4:30pm T.T

After this, one more UT to go & i'm done with Year 2 Semester 1.

Woo!

Oh yes, the results. Improvements. Insyallah.

Favorites!

2011-08-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

How's everyone? How's UT for those who took it? Mine was alright. But i feel that there are just too many questions for a 1 and a half hour paper :/ I managed to complete them though. I had to rush my fingers. Suddenly my typing became fast and accurate. Woo!

So after UT, i went down to Causeway Point to look for some things. Imm San accompanied me. I wanted to look for any potential face scrub for sensitive skin like me, facial wipes and also bronzer but i couldn't find the one that i want to get.

But at least i finally bought my mascara *points just below* I've been loving this Maybelline mascara ever since it's sold here in Singapore. Easy to put on, lashes seems to be thicker & longer and it can be easily removed with water.

I got myself a pair of t-shirt from Uniqlo as well. This is something that wasn't in my list but is now in my wardrobe ^^

Below are just photos of products that i'm currently loving.

Like have been said above, thicker and longer lashes and can be easily removed with water.

Eye shimmer from The Body Shop. This shimmy is great. It brightens up my eyes every morning. The shimmer isn't to powerful so it's okay if you are going for natural or enhancement look.

Another product which i've been loving. Lo'real blush! This blush stays all day long! And its amazing because i have oily skin. Even after a few times of blotting my face, it stays. Awesome!

This is one of the expensive products in my make up bag. The Body Shop Minerals Foundation. It works well with my skin. I only use it on certain occasions since its foundation. Won't want to cause more trouble for my acne-prone skin.

And not forgetting this. My Mama got me this. Avene thermal water. It has many uses like for itching, irritation, burns, after cleansing, while travelling etc and the best part is that it caters to sensitive skin. This is my next favorite other than Akin face mist.

Till here, take care.

Just for Ared,

2011-08-22T21:43:00.001+08:00

Posting photos in a blog is better than Facebook? Hmm... my dear Ared says that. What do you all have to say? Agree? I still don't know but maybe i guess because in blogs we get to express more with whatever we have rather than Facebook. Well, maybe.

But whatever it is, here's for you dear boy. Don't ask me why, i guess you know why but i've been missing you terribly even though you were right in front of me. I never thought i would be going through this soon but i guess fate has its way. Maybe He know we're strong enough to pull through this? Maybe.

We turn 35 months yesterday. Each time 21st comes, i will tend to turn back to the days of how we met, how we contacted each other, how we meet up with each other, how Yishun Park reminds me of us, how you first call me dear even as friends, how you confess, how we became one and how we have grown together.

I know i said i'm not that committed (you get what i mean by this) but trust me, the love i have is for you and only for you. I'm just afraid. I'll work on this, okay? But i hope you'll prove me something. Something which will make me believe whatever we have said are not just fantasy but something to be turn into reality.

I remember the both of us saying that we don't like planning of wearing the same thing. But sometimes it just happens that we wore the same thing. Telepathy? Hehe. I feel that we're connected someway somehow. No, not through the cyber

world and also not through calling or text messaging but just through something... I just don't know how to put it in words.

But hey, no doubt i do miss the frequent text messages and also the calls which we usually have at night. I do wish for it to happen but yeah. When the time comes, i might not be able to even get text messages from you. That's sad. I'll feel 'lonely'.

Nevertheless, i really hope 5th September will happen. It's something that will be very precious to me. It's like the last before you had to carry extra responsibilities and the next possible proper outing might be in the later months.

For after so long or maybe the first time that i'll be planning our outing. I hope i'll do okay :/ But 5th September okay! Can't wait!

Today was great. Thank you baby. We'll meet again this Wednesday. After Wednesday, i'm not sure if we're able to meet again before Hari Raya begins but yeah.

I'll miss you. I'm missing you my soon to be army boy.

Happy birthday!

2011-08-22T20:55:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to the girl beside me!

I still remember when she gets angsty for her birthday falls on a UT date, heh.

Anyway, we've been classmates for 2 semesters; team mates, sharing stories & also having the trouble of choosing what to eat during break, HAHA.

But anyways, chills okay and i hope you had a great birthday.

Once again, happy birthday! :D

Cause i love taking photos.

2011-08-21T14:44:00.001+08:00

Mama got me this because my favorite red watch can't be helped anymore.

This watch has this pinkish-maroonish color. I'm fine with it. They are still shades of red.

I've yet to put on this watch though (other than trying it out).

Tomorrow, will be Timmix first day. I know, a random name just pop out for this watch.

HAHA ^^,

mFm turns 2 years 11 months.

2011-08-21T12:33:00.001+08:00

21 comes again.

Happy 35th of 21's ♥

After quite a while,

2011-08-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

After quite a long while, we, the 3 of us finally got to meet each other. Again, it's in the month of Ramadhan. We decided to break fast at Seoul Garden, Bugis. We got to catch up and exchange stories. We may not be the girls who always meets but that does not mean that our bond will expire. In fact, even after quite a long while, the bond is still there.

I did enjoy myself and i'm glad the 3 of us are still there for each other some way somehow. Next outing, movie. Hopefully it will go as what have been said, insyallah.

Till we meet again, sisters :)

Some photos below. Photo credit to FatinFilzah.

And not forgetting the necklaces. Thank you Dian for the necklace. We got one each! ^^,